Things that you cannot take back are just so painful to keep or throw away. Since both are tough, I would rather suffer by protecting them.
もう取り戻せないものというのは、持ってるのも捨てるのも苦しい、どうせどっちも苦しいなら、私はそれを守るために苦しみたいの.
--- Shimura Tae <GINTAMA>